things to come part deux

My birth father is now a devote Christian.  he has his minister's license and everything.  He has always been a religious person from what I remember- but it was more him being a theologian than a worshipper.  He used to read us the Bible at the kitchen table once a week- in Hebrew! and then he'd discuss it.  In later years, I'd find him in his car on friday nights listening to Jewish temple.  He explained a few details about Judaism to me.  The reason we sailed from New York to Florida on his boat was because he wanted to go to Israel- Israel was our initial destination but the boat pretty much quit in Florida.  It actually quit in New Jersey, but we gimped down to Florida without a mast and dealing with leaks, cold, and a bad motor.
My first introduction to paganism came through him.  He didn't know, and he'd be quite aghast if he knew now.  He is very upset at my choice for a religion.  I actually thought he'd be a good person to discuss it with when I started religious studies over 12 years ago- but he had found his God and was not happy with mine.
How'd he start my (bitter descent to hell) paganism studies?  He pointed out that when he read the Hebrew bible- it says "In the beginning, the GODS created the heavens and the earth"

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A hint of things to come..........

I'm going to start by digressing- I know, weird way to start, but I feel it is necessary.  My mom married that guy up there.  Then she had my brother and I.  When I was about 3, that guy and my mom divorced.  My relationship with his has been spotty.  I rarely saw him as a child (due to conditions or choice, I do not know).  I visited him at about ten yrs of age and ended up living with him.  We sailed from New york to Florida.  I remember my main caretaker being his psycho girlfriend, though, not him.  It might have been difficult for him to deal with an almost teenager girl, he might have tried, I don't remember.  My adult years have seen him sporadically.  He stopped by for a few hours when my son was about 6 months old. He sent money when my other son died.  He sent a present a few winters ago.
What leaves a negative feeling in my bones is how he communicates.  He is not a happy man.  He feels he has been wronged.  I'm a listening ear.  But- he bad mouthed my mom to me! My mom- the woman who never said a negative thing about him- the woman I respect and revere.  He said mean things about her.  Mean things, that even if they were true, would not matter to me.  When he sent the gift a few winters ago, my kids sent him a thank you note- they did not refer to him as grandpa, they do not know him as grandpa- and he was mad.  BUT, if you ask him what their names or birthdays are, he couldn't tell you without looking it up.  He even asked why he sent me money on my son's death day- he was looking through his check register and couldn't remember what that money was for.  
Anyway, this post is not a "feel sorry for me- he's done me wrong" post.  because he hasn't.  Even though we don't have a relationship now, he picked the best mother for me that anyone could have.  He taught me about sailing.  He introduced to me to things I would never have known about.  He could be a really cool man to know- if he just didn't say mean things about my mom- if he just didn't expect too much out of a relationship just because he helped conceive me.
So, The reason I am blabbing all this- is because when I speak of him, I don't know what to call him.  Dad doesn't fit.  Sperm donor is unnecessarily cruel.  I'll call him my birth father.  Since this digression is sooo long.  I think I'll finish this post tomorrow.  I had something else to say but I wrote forever on this subject!

passive aggressive

I view the people around me as people I have earned.  I need them as they have been assigned as family or friends, or as a lesson.  I just freaking wonder why I keep getting stuck with passive aggressive a-holes.  They always seem to be in an authority position in my life.  Is it because authoritative people tend to be passive aggressive -holes, or have I not learned a lesson and the Gods feel a need to punish me by keep thrusting me back into this spot? this spot:subservient to P.a.a-holes.?

Why am I going off?  I just got chastised in a half-a$$ed way by someone I didn't deserve to get it from.  He announced how he just did dishes- to his son.  I had just made dinner and left one dish, the dish the meat was in.  Why the announcement?  He opened the fridge door at such a speed that the butter flew out.  The butter door was left open (my bad) but I had opened numerous times and nothing happened.  I was so surprised that I exclaimed "wow- you must have opened that fast" and thus I deserve to be punished with negativity for the rest of the evening.  Nevermind that I was the one who cooked dinner, packed away all the decor, and vacuumed.  Nevermind that I did all the dishes besides the one pan.  That I rarely rock the boat.  That I am a calm and rational person~ until I have to deal with passive aggressive for a long period of time.
I realized how different this household is from my own.  My mommy and brother rarely put anyone down.  Sure they see weaknesses, but they don't berate the person for them, they accept them as part of the person.  My mommy and brother don't try to own anyone, steal the spotlight, or be the boss,  My mommy speaks highly of her kids, my bro and I speak highly of each other.  negativity has no space in our life.
Not here.  It's part of the air.  I wonder how I was placed here.  Boyfriend is not the main feeder of negativity, and if he does- he does not do it with intent or malice.  but his father ooozes it from his veins.  His family acts so different from my own.  What am I to learn from this?  don't tell me patience- I know that and all it got me was stepped on.  What else am I to learn from this?
I thought it was understanding.  I try to understand when he shuts my door even though I am sweating.  I try to understand when he saves everything because he is from the depression.  I try to understand when he turns my tv on or off, my channel when I am in the potty, or my light brighter or darker for no reason~ but they only thing I can come up with is control, and I can't understand what I would learn from another another controlling relationship.
Help me understand.




BTW_ I got my first Holiday card from the netherlands!!!! It is soooo cute and the stamps I will save! I'll save the whole darn thing! Thanks MARA!!!!

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Sexy Bollywood actress and model Neeru Singh Bajwa in a hot bikini photo shoot for Showtime.



She started her career with three television series; Hari Mirchi Lal Mirchi on DD1, Astitva Ek Prem Kahani on Zee TV, and Jeet on Star Plus.



She made her debut in Bollywood in 2010 with the film Prince alongside Vivek Oberoi. She was also seen in Phoonk 2, a horror movie. She has done a movie with Dev Anand.

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Rani Mukherjee and Vidya Balan were giving a promotional interview for their upcoming movie 'No One Killed Jessica' when Rani Mukherjee kissed Vidya Balan on the lips.



This kissing scene was similar to the famous Madonna and Britney Spears kiss on stage.



See the video here:

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sure, she looks sweet and innocent

 

yeah- don't let her fool you when she is asleep

 Here is how she really is:

 

Kittehs

I'm having issues with my mother.  Yeah- that's not something I ever expected to say- ever- but here I am saying it. 
Lemme digress and backtrack before I explain said issues. 
Cats love me.  They follow me down the street.  They run out of their bushes to be loved by me.  They show up at my doorstep and adopt me.  I am a cat-magnet.  Like catnip to cats.  Cats always love me.  always.

Except the cats my mom chooses.  They are evil.  They aren't even real cats.  They think they are part dog, which might be part of the issue.  Neither of her current cats will snuggle with me.  Neither will let me hold them.  Neither will purr for me. 
One spends her day hiding- I assume it is from me.  Right now she is in the closet of my brother's room because my room is not good enough for her.
The other spends her day creating trouble

Then falling asleep.
but will she fall asleep in my warm squishy welcoming lap?  noooo.  she picks the Christmas tree to sleep in.
OR MY BROTHER'S LAP!

My mom needs to do a better job of picking kittens! how rude

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Kareena Kapoor in a spicy photo shoot for Asian Women December 2010 issue.



Kareena Kapoor and Priyanka Chopra recently ended their cold war when they hugged each other and performed on stage together at the Mumbai Police Mela show.

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Snooping around for those photos I cam across some of their new totally gnarly swimwear. Which reminds me, I NEED A VACATION.

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The Slip

The piece most likely to jump out at anyone, from this chapter, is the Party

Dress. As someone who wore a few bubble skirts in the 80s, I'm not so sure I'm willing to revisit this style. But post traumatic 80s syndrome aside, I have some questions about the wearability of this piece overall. While the knitted portion is quite cute, reminding me of Annie Modesitt's Silk Corset, I'm not sure that it's very practical to expect it to hold up such a substantial skirt . I have visions of everything migrating south, held precariously by the neck tie. I think I'd be inclined to keep the knitted portion only, add a bit more length to the upper edge and wearing the straps on my shoulders instead of off of them. It's also worth noting that the shaping is all done by means of changing needle size, so for very curvy people (such as I), you may have a hard time adjusting fit. I think you might be better off working a size too small and letting the fabric stretch to get a snug fit, or make sure you work it in a very drapy yarn. The skirt, of course, requires machine sewing, but I bet most people will stick with the top alone. To be fair, though, Julia pointed out to me that this is probably more of a show piece meant to highlight the extents to which you can take this concept. So take my comments with a grain of salt.

JMM: Yes , it would appear that the entire weight of the bubble skirt hangs from the ribbon at the neckline, but that is not the case. If you look at the finishing, you'll see that I've added 4 rows of elasticized thread (which in the dressmaking weight is quite strong) to the inside of the waist area spaced 1/2" apart. This not only takes care of supporting the weight of the skirt, it keeps the ribbing nice and tight at the waistline (even though shaping has been done by changing needle size), a crucial element of the silhouette that would be lost otherwise.

I'd like for this 'knit + sew" garment to be considered more of a jumping off point for those who are into making their own special occasion wear. It was shown with a bubble skirt, but any type of full skirt silhouette would work. Think of this with the bodice knit in a pearly silk blend with a pretty handkerchief hem skirt as perhaps a bridesmaid's gown or prom dress.

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Shruti Haasan is still looking for her first hit in Bollywood since her initial movies have not done well at the Bollywood box office.